Part 153
What came over the next week isn’t worth recording because mainly it was just more of what had already happened. What was notable however was how depressed the adults slowly became. It was getting so bad that Kevyn, Chris, and I started keeping the boys separate from them as much as possible. Or at least as much as you can in an oversized treehouse type set up. And then finally, I had to take it to Sgt. Shelly.
“Look, if this keeps up I’m going to take the boys and …” She tried to stop me with a growl. “That won’t work. You’re good but I’ve been growled at by better.”
Trying a different tactic she started, “Pip …”
Not wanting to get into hot water but needing to cut to the chase I responded, “Yeah. I get it. You gotta a job to do. And so do I. I won’t let you go hungry, but I took on the job of helping to look after the boys and right now the adults are turning into a serious problem.”
Gayle butted in and said, “Explain it.”
She almost made me want to grin because it was the same way she’d said it when she’d asked about me being a micropreemie and when she’d asked about the tea that I’d given to Lucy.
“Most of the adults, they’ve lost confidence. It’s like they’re barely … barely willing to believe that they’ll survive. Barely willing to work at surviving. That attitude is what the boys are picking up on. It confuses them. They personally aren’t to that point yet and you adults are supposed to be better than them so now they’re wondering what they’re missing, what they aren’t being told. It’s giving them the heebies. You see how they’re acting. The crybabies are worse and Kevyn’s boys are getting squirrely.”
Gayle nodded slowly but said, “It’s too dangerous.”
“You haven’t heard the plan.”
“Doesn’t matter what the plan is, it’s too dangerous.”
Before I could tune up Sgt. Shelly said in a voice nearly as tired as I’d yet to hear it, “Radio said the enemy is on all four sides. There is no getting out of this one.”
I rolled my eyes. “Please don’t be like the rest of them. Someone has to keep their head on straight.”
Lucy and Josie picked that moment to get nosey. “Be realistic Pip. This is bad.”
I could see the boys taking a little too much interest in the conversation we were having so I said it maybe in a way I wouldn’t have otherwise and hoped everyone would get it. “No kidding. Of course things are bad. They’ve been bad since Z-Day. But I don’t see that any of us have given up since then.”
“This is different.”
“Is it? Look, I’m not stupid. First thing on Z Day I learned is that everyone eventually dies. People leave even when they don’t mean to. One day I’m going to leave whether I mean to or not. But until that happens you fight. You fight with everything you have. Yeah, you might die but then again, maybe you don’t, maybe you leave, maybe someone leaves you, but then again maybe both of you fighting means neither of you leaves. The bigger your group, the more you have fighting, the better your odds that no one has to leave. Because you aren’t just fighting for you, you’re fighting for all of you. And if it is your turn to leave, the legacy, the thing you leave behind … that might be what helps the others fight, that’s what keeps someone else from having to leave.”
All was quiet around me, too quiet. It wasn’t just the boys that had been listening to me but most of the adults had been as well. Looking around and seeing nothing but an unwillingness to hear what I was saying I finally got up in disgust. “Tell you what. I think Limmer and I should just go on strike. If the lot of you are going to be like this then there is no sense in us cooking, you don’t need it.”
Wonder of wonders it was Limmer who said, “I’m with you Pip. I ain’t breaking my back if it means nothing, though from the look of your monkeys they ain’t too partial to the idea.”
“Well, if they fight they get fed. If they lay around like a buncha crybabies they get hungry. That’s the rules.”
It was Hector who added, “You better know it. Hermanita don’t keed around about dat stuff.”
It took more time than it should have – they acted like it took a freaking committee to make the decision – but the next day some of the boys, Kevyn, Chris, Josie, and a couple of the militia guys came with me to grab up everything we could find upstream which was the only safe direction we could go to avoid contaminated food and water sources.
I must have been making a face of some sort because Josie asked, “What’s up Pip? You smell something?”
“No, I just don’t like stripping everything like this. The cattails will come back eventually, the arrowroot too. And I know picking the hips won’t hurt the rose bushes. It’s the greens I’m worried most about. Take too much forage and the animals will starve over the winter and then I won’t have nothing to hunt next season.”
“You know something we don’t?”
“Huh?”
“You’ll go where we go. Who knows where we’ll be after the extraction in a few days,” she said, at least letting me know my crew was done thinking about dying in the next day or two, or at least done thinking about it right then. “Ain’t no telling where we’ll be that far in the future.” At my silence Josie asked, “What? You don’t want to be our patrol cook?”
“I … I wasn’t sure you’d still … uh … you left, didn’t come back. I was wondering if you’d gotten someone new and just hadn’t figured out a way to tell me.”
Josie stared down the others and they went back to packing the forage for transporting. Turning back to me she said, “We’d been told you’d been picked up. It wasn’t until Moe made some noise that Shelly checked the logs and back tracked it to the team that was supposed to have extracted you. You were the only one they had to pick up. We weren’t quite sure what to think. The worst was the most realistic.”
“I didn’t leave camp for a while … days. There’s no way I would have missed a helicopter, or them me.”
“You sure?”
Absolutely sure I told her, “Positive. Like I’m positive those Red Cross helicopters saw us but ignored us when we signaled for help.”
Having already heard the story Josie nodded before saying, “Guess we have some looking up to do.”
“I don’t mean to start trouble.”
“You didn’t. They might have. That flight crew is contract and getting a reputation.”
“A reputation?”
“Yeah. Not trustworthy. Not earning their pay. **** like that. I don’t know what to say about the Red Cross helicopter. There aren’t supposed to even be any in this area. Their flyers can have serious attitudes … real copter jockies is what they are; pilots in general are like that, most deserve it … some want it without earning it, just ‘cause they’ve got wings instead of wheels. This flight path was closed down for …” Josie stopped like she was thinking about something unpleasant, then she reached over and tucked the tail of my head scarf back in. “We wouldn’t have left you out here if we’d known.”
Despite not wanting to feel it, a warm spark snuck in at her words. I shrugged it off and said, “I figured. None of you struck me as that type, not after all that babysitting. That’s why I kept your gear safe and as many of the supplies that I could though most of the food is gone now. When we deal with the enemy and then put the puss brains out of their misery … at least those that don’t wander off on their own … we’ll get your stuff. You’ll see I didn’t go AWOL like your other cooks.”
“You’ve already proved it Pip. You’ve already proved it.”