Had a lot of not nice things in life knock me down for a while. Too TMI for online sharing. There are people that are just crap, and some of them … never mind.
Basically hubby and I are doing great as far as marriage goes and the suckage of life has done nothing but made us better partners. My parents are still around, but a little more frail and needy. My little brother is finally becoming the man he has always wanted to be and I'm proud of his efforts, and he is stepping up to help with our parents which is a stone cold relief for me. Business is going great, better than ever but even that comes with a caveat of because we are doing good other people want what we have built. And I'm making the successes I can point to be enough.
But for a while there were things going on that were just all way beyond what I could deal with on top of everything else so I took a break from the internet as much as possible and social media and forums almost completely. What writing I tried to do was pretty dark, graphic, and not something I would be proud to share. I am picking the mess out of the stories I had in progress but it is going to take a while. And honestly the genre wasn't doing my peace of mind any good so after thinking I was just going to have to give it all up and feeling really sad, hubby took me away for the weekend and convinced me to try other genres and … well Yelysaveta is the result. The story practically wrote itself since Christmas. I just need to get all of the graphics, fonts, and some of the formatting stripped out of it so that it can post on FictionPress cleanly. Plan is to post about 5 chapters a day until that one is online (it's long) and then see what the inside of my head says about fixing the mess I made of some of the other stories.
I'm slooooowwwlllllyyyyy migrating all of my stuff off of blogger and over to FanFiction.net and FictionPress.com The two sites are set up for writers. I got one complaint in a review about not being able to copy n paste the stories into a wordprocessor but that is to help minimize plagiarism. Yeah, I had to deal with some of that too but I won. I also won where some whack job stole one of my kids' identities and created problems with the IRS. The list of crap-ness is long and varied and those two things aren't even the worst or most hurtful. I'll deal. I won't say I've turned the corner … I don't even know if there is a corner to turn … but at least some of my adjustment reactions are now under control.
I'm not weak. I can at least say that much. I just had to decide where I was going to devote my mental and emotional energy. I love you guys but I had to side with real life. I'll update Mother Hen's Blog as I get things migrated. Yep. I'm embarrassed. But it is easier to stick with the truth than get caught up in lies. Real life kicked my butt … or at least some of the people that exist on this side of the computer screen tried to. They lost. But my "win" wasn't completely clean. I'm dealing.
Hope to get back to moving forward rather than slipping sideways or sliding backwards.
