The Next Day
She went looking for him. After last night, she had questions, questions she wanted answers to before tomorrow. Tomorrow they would be out on the water again. They would have too much time to be alone with their thoughts, and too worn out at the end of the day to talk without fatigue coloring their conversations. Most of them were in the hut, taking advantage of the relaxation, but he wasn’t.
She looked carefully at how she was dressed. She made some adjustments. She wanted this to be right. Hair was easy. The other required a quick change. The right shirt, the right pants. Her mind was set on what she wanted to look like for this conversation.
Out the door and down the stone walkway she went. She placed every step carefully on the pavers. Even after all these years, she had to make a conscious effort to get every step right.
He was down by the kayaks. He had told Ian he was just going to make sure some stuff was put away, so he didn’t have to do it tomorrow. While he was there, he would check the tie-downs and the covers on all the kayaks that were keeping them weather tight and safe. This was welcomed by the others so they didn’t have to get dressed and go out into the cold to do it. That’s what gave her the opportunity to talk to him alone.
She saw Erich now. He was sitting on one of the large square stones they had tied the kayaks to. He wasn’t doing anything, just sitting on the stone, staring at the water. She came up behind him. Without a word, she slid her hands over his shoulders and down his chest, mimicking his actions last night in the tub.
He slid his own hands up and held hers. Neither said a word, just stood there a long time, both staring at the sea. Finally, he gave her hands a gentle squeeze before he spoke.
“I guess this is the part where you ask me what my intentions are with your sister, right Mia?”
“What gave it away?” She asked him.
He tipped his head back far enough to look at her.
“It’s your hands,” he smiled as he gave them another gentle squeeze. “Yours are a little more delicate.” He let go of one of her hands and pulled her around in front of him. When she was in front of him, he stared up into her eyes.
She held out a hand as if presenting herself. “I thought I got it all right, and it was my hands that gave it away?”
Erich looked her up and down a moment.
“You did get it perfect. Anyone else would have been fooled. Hell, I would have been fooled for a moment if I saw you at a distance instead of felt your hands first, but I would have known right away anyway.”
“Oh? And how would you have known?”
“I’ve stared at you two ever since I met the both of you. I’ve studied every line, every curve. I’ve been so angry at each of you I could spit fire. Both of you fought with me and for me. Body and soul, you two drove me forward. Neither of you were willing to let me quit. Along the way, I found out I didn’t care about anyone else’s opinions but you two. I found myself measuring things by things like ‘I bet Mia would like this’ or ‘this would make Evelyn giggle’. Last night…Last night I took a leap of faith when I had an opportunity to do something more that I thought would make Evelyn feel good. I wasn’t trying to do it in a creepy way, but now I have a problem.”
“What kind of problem?” Mia wasn’t sure where this was headed. She wasn’t quite understanding exactly…
“My problem is it’s not something where I love her more than you….” he stuttered to a stop and flushed as he realized what he had said.
“You love me?”
“I…Yes. I love you. I love Evelyn. I can’t imagine being around one of you without being around the other. I could never choose between either of you. That’s why I haven’t said anything. I guess I just went too far last night. Now I don’t know what to do.”
“You held Evelyn. You made her feel loved. It was pure. You aren’t going to look at her like she’s a freak. You’re already over her biggest worry.” Mia said.
“But that’s Evelyn. What about you?”
Mia noticed he was still holding one of her hands. What about her? This was a whole jumble of new ideas and emotions for her to sort through. She had no idea about her.
Growing up, she had always defaulted to protecting Evelyn, and making sure Evelyn was taken care of. Hell, when she was away, she still viewed people and relationships through the lens of what would Evelyn think about this guy or that guy. She paid attention to how they reacted around people with any sort of ‘impairment’. Snarky comment about the kid in a wheelchair? Kicked to the curb. Less than sympathetic to the guy using a cane? Gone.
Evelyn moved up here to help her through stuff and she was right back to being the protective big sister all over again, even now! Shit, here she was dressed in Evelyn’s clothes, coming out her to try and trip Erich up to get a good read on where he thought this whole thing was headed. Didn’t work.
Here was a guy who would have none of those issues. He would understand Evelyn’s limitations without stifling her. But that wasn’t the problem. The problem was he said he was in love with both of them. That was new. OK, not technically, but the other person that expressed that was years ago and was only hunting a threesome with twins for his bucket list.
Erich was different. He seemed sincere. He was out here agonizing over it. He didn’t know what to do. Hell, why should he. She didn’t know what to do either.
Erich was someone walking down the same path both her and Evelyn were traveling. He was trying to adjust to losing his identity, no longer able to do the job he loved, was good at. He faced the challenges of how to adapt to his new physical limitations. He had a connection with both of them.
“What about you?” He gave her hand a little squeeze.
“Honestly? I don’t know.” She tugged him gently to his feet. She looked at him. She leaned forward, pulled him to her and planted a kiss on him. He was startled at first, but got the hang of it quickly. She let go.
“I still don’t know but I’ll talk with Evelyn, and we’ll get back to you.” She smiled as she stepped back and walked back up the stairs.